Thursday, August 23, 2012

Listen To Your Heart

You know it's crazy how things happen sometimes. Well honestly I guess it's not really crazy when you know that God is in control of your life. He moves in ways we can't comprehend with our natural limited minds.

That is why I find it so important to listen to our hearts. Our minds often over analyze things. As women we often make decisions based on our emotions. We want to please everyone, be accepted and fit in. We sometimes compromise our beliefs and integrity to fulfill the desires of others.

When we listen to our hearts we tend to be lead by the spirit of God. God's word says "Keep thy heart with all diligence; for out of it are the issues of life." Proverbs 4:23. So it's no surprise when you go against your heart that things go wrong.

I feel that when we go against our heart we tend to lean on our own understanding instead of acknowledging God and letting Him guide us. If we are connected with God and allow Him to fill us with all that is good then we can rest assured that we will follow a path of love and abundant blessings.

If we allow the outside influences of the world to penetrate our souls then we are often guided down a path of confusion and pain. It is easy to be manipulated when you are searching for yourself. When you are seeking your purpose and path in life you tend to get of course for emotional reasons.

We tend to try to fill the gaps and voids in our lives with natural, fleshly desires and treasures. We settle for mediocre relationships, jobs, health, and so on. Since we don't truly understand who we are we think that is all we deserve. We don't realize that God has prepared a place for us that far supersedes any of our expectations.

So in the course of us trying to find ourselves, overcoming obstacles, learning about God and developing into the vessels we were created to be it's imperative that we listen to our hearts.

Stay true to yourself. Live your truth and let God lead the way.

Friday, July 27, 2012

The Storm

I have to be real to my roots and foundation. God is the source of my existence and everything I do must be according to His perfect will for my life. You see we often feel frustrated and sad when we travel outside of that perfect will. Or when we try to do things on our own without consulting Him.

"Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don't try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he's the one who will keep you on track." Proverbs 3:5-6

Lately I have been extremely frustrated and disappointed in myself. I have not been consistent with my workout and nutrition. I have slacked off big time and the scale is reflecting my lack of commitment.

It's not that I don't know what to do. It's not that I don't have the resources to do it. It comes down to my lack of discipline and obedience. It doesn't matter how much I learn about nutrition and exercise. I can know so much until my head swells. The only way I am going to reach my goal is to discipline my body and bring it under subjection.

"But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified." 1 Corinthians 9:27

It is going to take discipline and hard work. The body I desire will not come from wishing, hoping, reading about different diet and workouts. It's going to come from controlling myself and enforcing obedience and order.

Obedience is the act of obeying: the act or practice of following instructions, complying with rules or regulations, or submitting to somebody's authority. So I know what to do I just have to follow the instructions and comply with the rules and regulations. I have to submit my body and bring it under subjection. I need discipline.

It's not about will power. It's not an external force that you must obtain in order to resist a temptation. It's about the power within you. It's about listening to your intuitive wisdom or the little voice in your head that tells you what is right and wrong.

It's about shutting up the emotional, out of control garbage that is floating around in your head and standing on the truth. The truth is that you have what it takes to make it happen. You have been equipped for the battle. All you must do is move forward with determination and intention.

What is motivating you to be fit? What is the reason for putting down that fork when you want that last bite? What keeps you from throwing in the towel? What keeps you moving towards that goal even though you feel defeated?

Although I fall...although I step back....I keep getting up because deep down inside I want it so bad I can taste it. I want to see what discipline looks like. I want to be the woman God called me to be. It's not just about the outward manifestation for me. It's about the way I am able to discipline my mind and create something out of faith.

If I believe that I can then I will. If I can see it then I can have it. It all may sound cliche but it's the truth. The body follows where the mind goes. So instead of feeling defeated you must have the courage to believe that you can do it. You must continue to get up even though you fall. You must take a step at a time even though you don't see the end.

In reality there will never be an end. You will always be challenged in your life to be be have more courage....and to be the best you can be. Life changes. Circumstances change and you must always be prepare to endure them. That is what being "FIT" is about.

You are not just working out or eating healthy to fit in the dress. You are training yourself for life. You are preparing yourself to endure whatever comes your way. Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically you must be strong to fight.

When an adversity steps in your way you must have the ability to leap over it and devour the fear. You must be fit to fulfill what ever your purpose and calling is in the life. We each have a plan and purpose or we would not be here on Earth just taking up space.

Just like you must prepare for a race so must youd prepare yourself for life. Endurance, agility, focus, determination, fortitude, strength and power must be the skills you possess to not only survive but thrive.

So although I have stumbled I know I have the choice on my next step. I can either stop or I can proceed. I can either crumble or I can rise. For those that are familiar with my blog you know what I have chosen to do. I will rise and proceed forward.

I know that every stumble is just an opportunity for me to learn and minister to myself and others. The journey is not really just about's about God's Kingdom. It's about His plan and purpose and I must be careful to hear His voice.

Sometimes God doesn't quiet the storm....He quiets the child. He uses the storm as a way to show Himself in you. So though the storms come...the emotions rage....the scale climbs...I will survive and I WILL THRIVE!

For more about my fitness journey check out my blog here.

Thursday, June 28, 2012


Consecrated: to make or declare sacred; set apart or dedicate to the service of a deity.

For most of my life I looked for validation and acceptance. I so desperately wanted to be loved. I looked for it in relationships and often felt so unworthy.

"The woman saith unto him, Sir, give me this water, that I thirst not, neither come hither to draw." John 4:15

Just as the Samaritan woman is John 4, I was going to well after well trying to quench my thirst. I was thirsty for love. Nothing could satisfy the desire I had to be loved and feel love.

Until I met God this life was filled with empty buckets that left me feeling disatisfied. I knew that there was something deeper that I was missing.

The part that I was missing was the love I had for myself. I had no self worth because I allowed the circumstances in my life to define me.

I allowed the childhood abuse, neglect and infedility to drown me beneath the feelings of self pity and defeat. I didn't feel worthy to be love therefore how could my desire truly be quenched.

After years of searching for love I have learned to love myself. God's uncondtional love has embraced me and given me a safe place to be myself. To live true to my convictions and beliefs. I no longer need anyone to validate who I am.

I have decided to consecrate myself for the glory of God. Rather than seek the love of a man I will love myself. In God's perfect time He will give me what I need when I need it.

My life is dedicated to fulfilling the will of God and for the time being I am consecrated....set apart for His purpose. I will honor and respect my mind, body and soul for His service.

Whatever He sees fit for my life I trust in Him. I acknowledge that my life is not really my own. I was created to bring God glory. Every adversity and emotion I have ever felt was all a part of His master plan. So I surrender my will and seek His sovereignty.

As with anything in your life....there are times when you have to stop and take a second look. You must analyze what you are truly seeking after. I most certainly guarantee that it can be found in God.

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33

"For in him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also his offspring." Acts 17:28

Wednesday, June 6, 2012


There is a great shifting taking place in my life right now. I am not sure about everything that is happening but I am at a place that feels transforming. There are moments that I can't describe in words but I am confident that God is in control. He is maneuvering things and preparing me for my calling.

He has prepared me this far to perform what ever tasks He created me for. He has lite a passion in me that no one can quench. The only satisfaction would lie in me manifesting what my heart so desperately yearns for.

I know that the next few months will be filled with so much growth and unmeasurable greatness. I wake up each morning just feeling honored and blessed for all that I have been given and the opportunities I have to bloom.

I am becoming more conscious of my power and potential to not only change my life but help others change theirs. I know that my life was created to bring honor and glory to God. So in all that I do I must acknowledge His sovereign plan.

It's no longer about what I want but rather what I deserve because God alone is in control of my life. He has awaken me to my essence and I know that I am worthy of greater things than I can even imagine for myself. God's plans exceed our expectations. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.

Right now in the moment even as I write this I have so much boiling up inside of me. I want to let it all out and help impact lives. I feel the love of God exploding within my soul. I feel the power of His mercy within my heart. I want to run, yell and cry because I can't contain this joy.

I praise Him for this moment and acknowledge His graciousness. He is great, mighty and awesome. My soul can not contain all of this power. I am ready to sow it and reap the plentiful harvest.

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


You chose the life you want to live. You chose the emotions that guide your path. You can either chose to live happy or crumble beneath the weight of disappointments, fears and pain.

There is nothing in this world that can take away or add anything to you. You have been equipped and strengthened with the spirit of God.

Although life may knock you make the choice to stand back up and try again.

Thursday, May 31, 2012

Waiting on God

By Dr. Charles F. Stanley

Waiting on God so we can discover His will is an essential discipline of the Christian life. Once we learn His plan, we must be careful to implement it in His time frame.

Following the Lord's schedule is always to our benefit because of His . . .

• All-encompassing knowledge. Unlike us, the Father has complete awareness about our world and the details of every individual life—past, present, and future. (Acts 17:26).

• Complete wisdom. The Lord understands man's every motive (1 Chron. 28:9) and acts accordingly. Our decision making is flawed since we cannot clearly discern people's intentions. We make choices based on partial information, but God has the wisdom to properly interpret the facts and then take action based on truth (Rom. 11:33)

. He never makes a mistake.• Unending love. Through His Son, the Father offers us unconditional love. By sending Jesus to die in our place, God proved the depth of His everlasting love (1 John 4:10). He always has our best interest at heart.

• Perfect sufficiency. The Lord offers us all the resources we need to carry out His plan—wisdom, strength, and skill (2 Peter 1:3).

Adhering to God's timetable requires both faith and courage. We must believe that He knows how we should live, trust that His plan is right, and have the determination to wait until He gives a signal to proceed. Those who follow the Lord's schedule will experience the blessing of watching Him work things together for their gain and His glory.

Scripture Of The Day: "Show me Your ways, O Lord; Teach me Your paths. Lead me in Your truth and teach me, for You are the God of my salvation; On You I wait all the day." - Psalm 25:4-5 (NKJV)

Friday, May 4, 2012

How do you want it?

You know life has not always been easy for me. I don't claim for it to be easy now but many people comment on how I am always so positive.

I have my days that I deal with insecurities, fears, doubts and uncertainties but I try to see the better part of things. Hard times come in and out of our lives at different times but how we perceive them determines the outcome of them.

If we chose to look at them as something that came to destroy us then it will. BUT if we see it as a challenge as something that came to teach us and strengthen us then it will.

After years of dealing with adversities and trying to learn how to deal with them I learned that my mind controls so much of what goes on in my life.

If I learn how to discipline my mind and keep it on things up above rather than on this Earth I can survive anything God brings before me.

I admit that I make certain things in my life worse than they have to be but mostly because I allow the weight of them to drown me.

Instead of allowing the currant to carry me I struggle to swim against it. Only leading me to frustration, defeat and depletion. Things don't have to be so hard if we surrender to them and allow God to handle it for us.

That doesn't mean that we accept turmoil and sit back and watch things fall apart. It means that we surrender to God and put our faith in action rather then our doubts and fears.

So next time you find yourself facing a troubling situation ask yourself.."How do you want it?"

You can either make it difficult or sail through with the grace of God. It's up to you.