Consecrate

Consecrated: to make or declare sacred; set apart or dedicate to the service of a deity.

For most of my life I looked for validation and acceptance. I so desperately wanted to be loved. I looked for it in relationships and often felt so unworthy.

"The woman saith unto him, Sir, give me this water, that I thirst not, neither come hither to draw." John 4:15

Just as the Samaritan woman is John 4, I was going to well after well trying to quench my thirst. I was thirsty for love. Nothing could satisfy the desire I had to be loved and feel love.

Until I met God this life was filled with empty buckets that left me feeling disatisfied. I knew that there was something deeper that I was missing.

The part that I was missing was the love I had for myself. I had no self worth because I allowed the circumstances in my life to define me.

I allowed the childhood abuse, neglect and infedility to drown me beneath the feelings of self pity and defeat. I didn't feel worthy to be love therefore how could my desire truly be quenched.

After years of searching for love I have learned to love myself. God's uncondtional love has embraced me and given me a safe place to be myself. To live true to my convictions and beliefs. I no longer need anyone to validate who I am.

I have decided to consecrate myself for the glory of God. Rather than seek the love of a man I will love myself. In God's perfect time He will give me what I need when I need it.

My life is dedicated to fulfilling the will of God and for the time being I am consecrated....set apart for His purpose. I will honor and respect my mind, body and soul for His service.

Whatever He sees fit for my life I trust in Him. I acknowledge that my life is not really my own. I was created to bring God glory. Every adversity and emotion I have ever felt was all a part of His master plan. So I surrender my will and seek His sovereignty.

As with anything in your life....there are times when you have to stop and take a second look. You must analyze what you are truly seeking after. I most certainly guarantee that it can be found in God.

"But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33

"For in him we live, and move, and have our being; as certain also of your own poets have said, For we are also his offspring." Acts 17:28

Shifting

There is a great shifting taking place in my life right now. I am not sure about everything that is happening but I am at a place that feels transforming. There are moments that I can't describe in words but I am confident that God is in control. He is maneuvering things and preparing me for my calling.

He has prepared me this far to perform what ever tasks He created me for. He has lite a passion in me that no one can quench. The only satisfaction would lie in me manifesting what my heart so desperately yearns for.

I know that the next few months will be filled with so much growth and unmeasurable greatness. I wake up each morning just feeling honored and blessed for all that I have been given and the opportunities I have to bloom.

I am becoming more conscious of my power and potential to not only change my life but help others change theirs. I know that my life was created to bring honor and glory to God. So in all that I do I must acknowledge His sovereign plan.

It's no longer about what I want but rather what I deserve because God alone is in control of my life. He has awaken me to my essence and I know that I am worthy of greater things than I can even imagine for myself. God's plans exceed our expectations. His thoughts are higher than our thoughts.

Right now in the moment even as I write this I have so much boiling up inside of me. I want to let it all out and help impact lives. I feel the love of God exploding within my soul. I feel the power of His mercy within my heart. I want to run, yell and cry because I can't contain this joy.

I praise Him for this moment and acknowledge His graciousness. He is great, mighty and awesome. My soul can not contain all of this power. I am ready to sow it and reap the plentiful harvest.

Happiness

You chose the life you want to live. You chose the emotions that guide your path. You can either chose to live happy or crumble beneath the weight of disappointments, fears and pain.

There is nothing in this world that can take away or add anything to you. You have been equipped and strengthened with the spirit of God.

Although life may knock you down...you make the choice to stand back up and try again.