I USED EVERYTHING

Each time I read this it gives me a lump in my throat. My number one goal in life is to serve God in any capacity that He wants me to. My hearts desire is that I would use every talent He has placed within me to help others become better and help them live a more enriched and fulfilling life.


I understand that every struggle I have had to endure was designed to strengthen me and set a fire in me. My heart, body, mind and soul are all surrendered to God.

I would hope that at the end of my life here on Earth He would be proud of all that I have done and accomplished.

I CAN DO IT

What keeps you from achieving that thing that you can't go a day without thinking about? We all have aspirations to be something we aren't or achieve a goal or dream that tugs at our hearts. I have those same dreams and aspirations for myself. Days, months and years go by and I have yet to achieve them. I get so close and make the steps towards them and then "BOOM"....I stop the progress.

Can it be that I am afraid to fail? Can it be that I am so used to compromising and settling that I don't know how to press through the barriers in my mind?

Whatever it is I am going to blast it out of the water now. I can not and will not allow my past, my present or my fear of the future keep me from reaching my goals...seeing my visions manifest or becoming the woman I know I can become.

You see everything you were meant to have....the desires of your heart....God placed them there. He already pre programmed you to be who you dream of being. He made you strong enough to endure what ever adversity comes your way.

Whether it be your own sabotaging thoughts that constrict the life from your dream or the doubts and comments of others.....God says it's possible. You can overcome and conqueror every thought, every emotions and every obstacle along this journey.

I am laying my fears, insecurities and doubts at the altar. I am fasting from the thoughts that make me believe that I am not able...that it's not possible or it's too difficult to achieve.

I am drowning out the voice in my head that says...."they will judge you"..."you aren't strong enough"...."you don't have the resources"....."you don't know enough"...."it is too hard".

I will fill my mind with the truth that says "I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST THAT STRENGTHENS ME". He has equipped me...He has created me....and He has ordained me to be all that I dream of and envision myself to be.

Survival Kit

^{Matthew 6
25}Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
 ²⁶Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
 ²⁷Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
 ²⁸And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
 ²⁹And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
 ³⁰Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
 ³¹Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
 ³²(For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.

Along this journey of life we tend to get knocked down at times. Many of us live day to day just trying to survive after heartbreak or disappointments. Whether they be from failed relationships, economical issues, unemployment, or other adversities. We tend to have our way of coping and dealing with these issues.

At times we may feel like we struggle to breathe or find a way to keep going. We search for ways to strengthen our faith or look for something to give us hope.

We often ask "when are things going to change?" "When will my promise come to pass?" "Can my dreams or the visions I hold close to my heart really manifest?"

I have been there. I have struggled to live each day while holding onto my faith, my mind, my heart and soul. At times I have considered letting go and just forgetting everything God has promised me.

At times I feel like the dreams I have for myself will never come to pass. I worry, I stress and sometimes I am down right angry and frustrated. I have served God with all my heart and I wonder at times if my labour..my pain...has been in vain.

I have built up walls, dug trenches, and created coping mechanisms to get me through some pretty rough times. I have used food, relationships and emotions to fuel my journey.

I have been in survival mode. Maneuvering my way through life just trying to make it day by day. Not really sure of what is coming but just walking by faith.

I had my go to bag...or what others might call a bag of tricks. I call it a survival kit. I have carried this heavy bag for over 10 years.

I am letting it go. I no longer hold onto the fear of being hurt, rejected, disappointed or failing. I live for the now. I live in the very breathe and heartbeat of God. I am dependant on His word to get me through the day. I am nourished by His truth and sheltered by His love.

I am no longer just trying to survive. I am living and loving this life that God has designed for me. I now realize that everything I need to make it through this journey is inside of me.

I have been equipped for the journey. I am not just meant to survive but to live abundantly and forever live in the promises of God.

God is my "lifeline".

Defined

Define

1. to state or describe something exactly

2. to show something clearly, especially in shape or outline

3. to mark a boundary, edge, or limit

4. to give the precise meaning of a word or expression

I was defined by emotions....by the things I had gone through. I allowed the past define me...mold me and conform me. My spirit, my potential was hiding beneath layers of past hurts and feelings of worthlessness.

Now I stand here in a different form still unsure at times of what the future holds....yet determined to be transformed as my mind is renewed. I have let go of the pain, made a mends with the past and surrendered to all possibilities of hope.

I have awaken to my true self. With each breath I am inspired to be my best, to reach my fullest potential . I live now with a sense of peace that only comes from resting in God.

I am transforming as I now let discipline define me and sculpt me. My outer appearance is reflecting my inner being.

I am a reflection of the transformation that has taken place within. I let go of the expectations and just allow myself to take form.

I stand on the promises that I have made myself. I am faithful to myself because the first relationship I must heal is within me. I must reconnect my mind, body and spirit and let it work in unison.

Married to the promise, faithful to the promise.....I now  become what I was created to be....what I was supposed to be all along........

A TEMPLE.

Not constructed with hands but created by the Spirit of God.

Molded and shaped by the belief that I am worthy, I am strong and I am powerful.

Broken down by the struggle but defined by resistance.

I stand here strong, disciplined and ready to face my destiny.

Wait On HIM

What is your interpretation of waiting on the Lord?

Many of us believe it means to do nothing but wait on the expectation of something.

To expect something for nothing.

For me it means to serve God. To surrender my will to fulfill His will.

To surrender my expectations to fulfill His plan.

To live my life unto Him and bring His name glory.

Waiting doesn't mean to go about living your own day to day life and expect Him to reward you for your disobedience.

I have spent years waiting on a vision that I have yet see come to pass.

Why?

Because I was busy living my life.

I was busy trying to satisfy my flesh and not fulling living to bring glory to God.

In my heart I wanted to serve God completely and fully surrender but my emotions got in the way.

I was more concerned about my feelings and how people felt about me rather than realizing that everything in my life was orchestrated by God to fulfill His plan.

So now that I am awaken to the truth I fully surrender my heart to Him.

I am waiting on Him...serving Him in my heart, my mind and body.

I have released my expectations and I stand on His promises...His words.

I stand steadfast and hold on to the vision He has given me.

It is not about how or when but rather for WHO.

Who am I doing this all for?

GOD!!!!!! I serve Him alone.

I can not serve my flesh and Him at the same time.

I must remain in Him and allow His truth to penetrate every area of my life.

That truth with set me free (on Earth) and bring forth the vision ( from Heaven).

AMEN!

Though It Tarries

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry." Habakkuk 2:3

tar·ry   

1. remain: to stay temporarily at a place
2. linger: to delay a departure or arrival, especially in an idle way
3. wait: to wait in expectation of somebody or something

vi·sion   

1. eyesight: the ability to see
2. mental picture: an image or concept in the imagination
3. something seen in dream or trance: an image or series of images seen in a dream or trance, often interpreted as having religious, revelatory, or prophetic significance

God has spoken and it shall come to pass.

Many of us are standing on words...prophecies....promises and visions that we have yet to see come to pass. We wait in the expectation that God will hold true to His word.

What happens when time passes? When years go by and your vision has not come to pass?

It can often be the hardest thing to do...to hold onto a promise when your heart is full of doubt.

It can be challenging to keep believing when everything in the natural world seems to be moving further away from your dream.

What happens when your reality doesn't match up to your revelation?

What do you hold onto when there seems to be nothing confirming what your heart feels is true?

God's word tells us that although it tarries..although you have not received it yet....wait for it.

Don't give up just because you can not see it with your natural eyes.

Where you currently stand...in waiting...is just temporary. God has an appointed time in which He will release everything He has promised you.

It takes preparation before we can receive the eternal promises of God.

Many times we are not mature enough or ready to handle the magnitude of His blessings.

We are so conditioned by the outside world that we often forget how faithful our God is.

He is not moved by a "failing" economy nor is He moved by our emotional storms.

He is touched by our infirmities but He is moved by our FAITH.

wait  

1. do nothing expecting something to happen: to stay in one place or do nothing for a period of time until something happens or in the expectation or hope that something will happen
2. stop so somebody can catch up: to stop or slow down in order to allow somebody else to catch up
3. be hoping for something: to be hoping for something or on the lookout for something

God asks us to wait on Him. To stand in this temporary place with the expectation that His promise will come to pass.

We can't work for it by trying to manipulate things. We must stand still and watch His salvation. He is resurrecting and rectifying our situation.

We must stop our way of doing things...our perception....our will and surrender to His sovereign plan.

God knows what He has for us. His plans are good. He desires to prosper us but we must trust in Him with all of our hearts.

Let our hearts not be troubled but rest in His faithfulness.

Nothing can stop God's plan from coming to pass.....just wait.

Enclosed By Fear

Giraffes are my favorite animal. I didn't know why I was so intrigued by them until I visited the San Diego Zoo this weekend. While visiting the giraffes I over heard a tour bus driver explaining some very interesting information about them.

He said that the wall enclosure around the giraffes is low enough that they can actually step over the wall if they wanted to but they never do. Why?

He said they are afraid of their own height. He said they believe that they are afraid because when they are born they actually fall about 6 ft to the ground.

That really made me think about life. How many of us have been through things in our lives that left us feeling afraid? How many of us have actually been dropped?

Although we have the ability to overcome and get out of the enclosures we find ourselves in we don't. Why do we continue to live behind the enclosures of our fear. We have the ability to walk right over them because God's word says that we are more than conquerors.

He has given us the power through His spirit to live free. Don't let fear keep you from living your life to the fullest.

It's time to live up to your potential and be who God designed you to be. :)