GODSTEM

Growing up I always felt left out and alone. Remember in school when you would be picking teams for a sport. Each team captain would take turns saying the name of the kid they wanted on their team. You hoped someone would say your name so you weren't the last one left. If you were the last one you felt like a loser. Like you weren't good enough....you didn't fit in...nobody even knew you existed. That was me the majority of my life. One day I was driving to work after I found out my husband had cheated on me. I was so sad and felt like nobody cared.....nobody loved me. I felt like that little kid who got picked last. My heart felt so broken....I could hardly breathe. I really just wanted to take my car and crash into a pole or something because I just hurt so bad. I didn't want to feel the pain anymore. I didn't want to deal with the feelings of loneliness and rejection. I would rather just die. Then I heard God say to me "You're on my team....I have chosen you". What I came to realize was that before I was ever in my mothers womb according to God's word.....He knew me....He loved me....He ordained me. I didn't need anyone to accept me or love me. I had God's approval. "If God be for me then who could be against me". That was such a comforting and healing feeling. I personalized my car plates with "GODSTEM" on it. Not because I believe in Good vs Bad but because I was chosen by GOD. I am on His team.

I later also realized what else those plates read "GOD STEM". I am a stem of God. I am a part of Him. He is the tree and we are the branches. It doesn't matter where you go in life or what you do. You are always a part of Him. We are always attached to Him. He promised us that He would never leave us nor forsake us. So although my daddy and my husband left me.....God will never leave me. I don't have to feel alone. I don't have to feel rejected because I always have MY FATHER and MY HUSBAND around. His name is God.